Stuck in a rut...

Have you ever felt that you were in a routine that you can't get out of? That is what I am feeling lately. For the past 5 years, I have worked at a grocery store during the summer, go to school in the fall, come home in the spring to return to this job that I am growing more sick of each year. I have been in this routine since high school and I desperatly need a change.

Don't get me wrong, I love being home and all. This acreage that my family lives on is beautiful, my animals that I love dearly are here, and my family is here. But every year less and less of my friends come home for the summer. I look in the paper and see that many of my classmates are getting engaged and married and moving on to different lives. I feel that I need a change. I want to learn how to live on my own. I don't like to depend on my parents, because they don't have much money and I hate to have them still support me in a way. I'm going to turn 23 in a few months, and I feel that I have never been truly on my own. There are many things about being on one's own that I don't know about and haven't experienced. This is my 3rd week of being home this summer, and I am counting down the days till I get back to Fargo.

Allright, now that I have vented my emotions for the week, on to something more uplifting. On the 4th of July I'll be directing half of the city band concert, which I am very excited about. We had our rehearsal this evening, and I ran through my songs with them. I think it will be just fine on Sunday night.

Well, tomorrow I have to help unload 100 bales of hay in the morning, and I have to work in the evening, so I better get going and do my nightly things that I do before I go to bed.